You can resist what is, or shall I say you can try.
With all of your might, fight that which exists in solid form.
It is there when you wake up, it is there when you sleep.
You can wrap it in brown paper and tuck it away in a trunk.
You can give it away asking another to take it from you.
You can put a bow on it, so that it looks different.
Under the wrapping, under the bow, it is still what it is.
You may even successfully put it away and “forget about it.”
But sometimes when the wind blows, you are reminded of something, and you silently know it is that which you resist.
And it knows it is there. It is waiting there for you, ready for you to face it.
And it seems the harder you try to resist it.
The more effort and strength you mount an attack against it, the stronger it seems to become.
It becomes no stronger though, the strength of that which you resist is that thing plus your own resistance coming back at you.
Then, one day, you turn and face it. It hurts.
It hurts so much deep within your soul, deep within your cells.
It dances and weaves it’s way through every part of your being.
You feel as if you might break into a million pieces.
This thing you now face is a part of you, and always has been.
The fear of acceptance flashes quickly. You sit with this fear, with this thing, with this resistance.
You realize if only you can understand this part of you, transforming that which you have resisted is possible.
You turn in the dark facing a mirror, and in the mirror it looks back at you and all the other pieces of yourself stare back from behind it, crying to be heard, to be seen again.
It is out of love for these other pieces, that you must love that which you fear the most.
Slowly with time you stop resisting.
But not like one who gives up hope.
You stop resisting with your heart and your mind open.
You listen to this thing’s story. You feel what it is telling you.
You sense within the fabric of your being that story for it comes in many ways.
You draw it into your breath and for the first time in a very long time the pain subsides.